Bad Burber

I knew I had overdone it, but, it felt good to get the Christmas decorations put away. I get really tired of looking at red and green crap. Yes, the house looks festive, but, eventually, it looks dusty and cluttered and I’m ready pack it away and be done with it. It was probably the earliest I’ve ever put stuff away. Well, why the hell not? Lots of ‘first times’ this year.

Waiting around for the cable people to come and switch our phone service at work. I think this will save us some money. Then, back home. Another sleep over, I suppose. I should charge a fee for all of these kids to spend the night. I can’t imagine that they are that comfortable, but, I guess I’m glad, too.

What do I do about the dogs having accidents in the house, besides shooting them? No, I won’t shoot them. But, they have decided that my daughters’ room is a field in which they can poop and pee. And, my god, the smell. Pretty bad. I have this high powered steam cleaner. I’m consistently amazed at how much gross-ness comes out of the carpet when I wash it. But, my god…. How many times do I have to do this? I need to rip out that carpeting and buy something else. I hate spending money on something I can’t watch, wear or eat. Spending $1500 on carpeting seems so boring, but, I’d like to torch what we have. What was I thinking? What made me think that burbur, that looks a little like dirt, was flattering? Yucko. I know that the dogs are color blind, but, I think they ‘feel’ like this is dirt and they should poop. And, my daughter just spends time in my room, and has abandoned her room as her own sanctuary. Where is MY sanctuary? I want something to be my sanctuary, but until the kids grow up and out of the house, I’m stuck. No, not stuck. That sounded bad.

Listening to NPR, but, not really listening. Why have it on? Discovered a fantastic feature on our cable service. “On Demand”. Whew. Sounds assertive, doesn’t it? I want this…… NOW!. I was able to demand the pilot episode of the Sopranos last night at midnight. I felt extremely powerful. I wanted it, and, by god, I got it. On the spot. Wonderful. There must be some high fee for this, but, the screen said that it was ‘free’. How can that be? But, it was great. I studied the episode. I am not sure why I am so attracted to this show, but, I am. It’s just perfect, the acting is superb, the direction, the character development, the story line….. amazing. I had forgotten why they burned down the restaurant, and then after watching it last night, I realized why. Aha! Pussy was going to get whacked there! Ok, NOW I got it. Now, I can go to sleep.

I told my daughter that I want to write a book. She said, ‘Oh, mom, you need to! We’ll be rich! We can move into a bigger house!’ I think our house is just fine. If I compare my home now to the one in which I grew up, it’s quite nice. But, she has some high dollar friends, too, that don’t have dog poop on their burbur. I just wish I could find time on the computer I bought. My son has 8,000 songs downloaded on our computer. But, he insists that that has nothing to do with the performance of the computer. Oh, of course not. He moved a bunch of it off, though.

Well, hopefully the cable people will get here and I can go back to my vacation. Ok, one more meaningless google search, carpeting that doesn’t look like dirt…… found a great website: www.likeks.com. Hilarious. Postcards and bad cookbooks. My kind of stuff. I even ordered some of his books for myself for Christmas. Speaking of books… I read all of the time now. Gordon would be so proud. But, I find that I am disappointed more than I am engaged in the story. Is that depression talking? Or, is it just me being picky? I read a book the other night, “How to Be Lost” and I couldn’t stop reading it… kind of hung in there. But, I was disappointed. But, at least I finished it. I’m finding I cam finishing a lot of things now. That’s a good feeling.

Well, back to the vacation.