Grace

Saturday night used to be a night in which I had to have something to do. A night at home, with nowhere to go, seemed really pitiful. Before I was married, I wanted to have a date scheduled on a Saturday night or, a night out with friends. When I was married, Gordon and I wanted to have a romantic evening together on a Saturday night or a family night, watching movies, fixing dinner together, whatever.

All those days are over. Sam is far away in school, probably just getting ready to go out now. Georgia usually isn't home on a Saturday night. But, tonight, it is different. Georgia and I put a new shower head on our shower. The baby kitty is snuggled up next to me, the dog is snuggled up to the kitty. Dad is watching movies. And, I am grateful.

It was a rough week. Had the interview, didn't do well on the interview on a couple of questions. The more I tried to figure out how I could possibly do the job, and a practicum and care for my daughter and help with dad, I realized there was no way. No way. And, oh, how I love this job. I love working with the clients to whom I am assigned. I learn so much from them. It is humbling to work with such amazing people. But, it isn't going to work. And, I can't figure out how to make it work.

But, that's work, and, this is home, and this is family time.

Through the ordeal of this interview stuff, I have had the privilege of being able to talk with dad and get his take on my situation. I have been able to turn to friends and sisters, too. I even had Georgia give me her take on things. And, the bottom line is, everything will work out, however it is supposed to. And, what a blessing I have been given, to have a dad, and some friends, and two sisters and a daughter to turn to for support. What a blessing. Thank you, God.