Y = Respect

I need to respect them, all of them, regardless of how they line up in front of me. I know that I've never given them alot of thought, and, given the stupid errors I make sometimes, I need to make my peace with them, all of them.

I'm talking about numbers. I just returned from taking the 'skills test' that I need to pass before I can actually 'take' the real test on Monday. Holy shit. I am sure I tried to take it about 20 times. I kept making the same errors, over and over again. At one point, close to tears, I almost left and threw in the towel. I tried to imagine explaining to everyone that I just 'couldn't do it'. Then, I tried again, and, I passed.

I need to quit faking it and just face the fact that I need to do alot of face time with these numbers, learning them, understanding them, and practice, practice, practice. So, that's the plan for the weekend.

What is all of this about, god? What am I doing?

So, for now, I need to be able to complete the 'perfect square'.